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It's amazing how time flies! I've been on dA for five years and it's been quite the roller coaster ride! 

It may not be on my profile but I'm not lying when I say I have been on dA for five years  XD
I had my very first account :iconmissinspirational: for three years back in 2012 and now two years added with this lovely account.

As I look back, there were lots of ups and downs but all in all it was a great experience.
I also took a peak at some of my old comments quite a few years back and GOD, how immature I was XDDD I was always such an excited and naive little child XDDD I was like, what, fourteen??? A lot has changed since then!! 8D

Also, I remember my very first watcher...

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She was my very first watcher, and I can't believe I still remember that given my poor memory X'D I was very shocked at the time because I remember not even posting a single thing yet she watched me anyways XDD It was a great honor since her art was (And still is) amazing as hell!
 
Anyways, Asante wasn't only my first watcher, but my very first friend on here too!

We bonded almost instantly (Although, I'm not sure if she'd say the same XDD) and I came to love her and her helpful and understanding ways. Asante always believed in me and others when no one else did, she always tried to keep the peace and harmony between people as best as she could. 

Asante and I would talk and chat often, talking via email or even here on dA...We'd chat about different things...Like art, inspirations, experiences and are lives. She was and still is one of my best friends and I appreciate all the help and support she has given me throughout these crazy years.

And although we don't chat much anymore (Due to both of us being extremely busy), I want her to know that I love her with all my heart and that no matter what happens, you'll still have a very special place in my heart.:heart: I miss you~ I also pray for you and hope you're doing well~

Another special friend (Who's probably really mad at me right now ^^; ) who helped me was :icondacartoonreality:

*Coughs, feeling absolute shame*

I remember a lot of our conversations and I look back at those emails and wished I could go back and change a few things.

She helped me with a lot of personal things and I still remember her name...BUT, I shall not say it due to personal reasons so let's just call her J.

I remember J and I used to call each pet names that I shall also leave out (Because I am unsure if J doesn't even want anyone else to know).

Being her friend meant a lot and she was always there too when I needed it...But I guess she felt like I pushed her away when I wasn't responding to any of her emails or replies.
*Hides in embarrassment*
I meant to email her and hoped that we could catch up, but I feel like we've both moved on and I feel like even if we tried it may never be the same.
I do want to apologize however, since it was mainly my fault to start with. I could've simply said a 'hello' or something. 
I also feel bad since she was going through such a hard time and it pains me that I was never there to give some sort of form of support or anything...And I know she must've felt ignored and felt like I pushed her away...(I'm having a feeling that most people are feeling like that with me now)
But I want her to know that even if we don't watch each other anymore that I think and visit her often. I pray for her well being and hope that she's doing fine, and that whatever hardships or obstacles have come her way that she will stay strong and continue to reach her dreams and goals.

Also, I un-watched her because I felt like I just needed to...Like I'm giving her space and respecting her needs...I still constantly visit her page though XDD I'M NOT A STALKER, I SWEAR! X'D

ANYWAYS, WHOO! *Lets out a breathless sigh of relief* That took a lot of flippin' courage to type that...Actually, I have been meaning to say this for a LOOOOONG time but never really was brave enough to do so XDDD

SO, yeah. And although I mentioned only two friends in this journal, I have MAAAAAAAAAAAAAANY best friends on here who know who they are! I wish I could mention all of you guys but I can't XDD TOO MANY TO COUNT!

I honestly love you all, you guys are like a second family to me and made my journey through dA and life a whole lot more enjoyable and I thank every single one of you for that~:heart:

I guess the main message of this journal is:

:heart:THANK YOU GUYS FOR EVERYTHING OVER THESE WONDERFUL YEARS!:heart:

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daCartoonreality Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey Dee...*hugs* 
What are ya talkin' about? I'll always be your "Jeddy". :iconloveyouplz:
But really, I find your courage in writing this very touching. It's more and more difficult to reach out to someone with the more time you let pass...a lot of people feel too awkward to ever make contact again. 

Let me assure you, I am not mad at you. Really. I've found that many people are terrible at keeping contact...its not just you! It's a human thing. Especially when we have many difficulties pressed upon us, we tend to shut others out. I was hurt when I didn't hear back, but then I tried to remember that its not like you wanted it that way, I was sure you had things going on that made it difficult or impossible to reach out...even if these things were just barriers in your head. I tend to befriend people that shut down from time to time and I lose contact with them...you know, crazy people. ;P

I am glad I could make such an impact in being a support for you in the years past. I've always appreciated your honest and open nature. Feel free to message me. Thank you for reaching out and know I would love to hear from you.
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
Jeddy!!!

Aha~ I missed you so much! It's been ages since we've talked and I just felt so bad, feeling as though you felt neglected or something ^^;

But I am so relieved and glad that you aren't mad...it just pained me to think that I might have hurt you in some way which wasn't my intention, honestly XD

But yes, you're absolutely right! I have been dealing with a lot since you know, a lot has happened. But nonetheless, I still think and pray about you! I believe I still have your email somewhere so when I get the chance I'll make sure to send you a message:hug: I honestly do miss talking to you!

But of course! You have made a great impact and I appreciate every little thing you did~:heart: Thank you~:hug:
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daCartoonreality Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I will message you my email so you do not need to hunt for it. :)
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
Aww~ I got it your note! Thanks~ My email has my username on it, so you'll know it's me ;)
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EmPro8 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy five year anniversary! Congratulations!
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
Aww!! Thank you!! 8D
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flowerpower71 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016
Congratulations!!!
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
Thanks so much!! 8D
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Queen-Asante Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student General Artist
Aw thanks so much Ari. *cries with you* Honestly, I feel the same way, so don't feel embarrassed for saying so. :hug:
I remember one of your very first artworks you posted as well, I believe it was the one of Abbi's very early design and you were asking whether she should be blonde or brunette and I sided with brunette, haha.
Just because friends don't talk every single day doesn't mean we don't still cherish those friendships. I will always consider you a friend, Aria, and no matter how busy I am and dead tired (like right now, just finished my shift), I will always pop in and say ''hello'' once in awhile. Still thinking of you, yaar, thanks so much for writing such a beautiful journal. Love you~ :heart:
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
Asante!!

*Pulls you into a massive hug*
I am happy you feel the same (I had a feeling you did, but wasn't quite sure X'D)~

I remember that! When you commented, I felt so happy inside...it might've been just a comment to you, but at the time, comments on my art were something I really liked! Nowadays it's about my friends and people who appreciate my art whether they comment/fave or not ;)

Yeah, I figured as much XD I realize your busy as so are many people on here (myself included) so I'm just happy that you're doing well (Even if you're tired as hell).
And no problem, I continue to think and pray for you and hope that we'll have time in the future to catch up on things:hug: But yes, I love you too m'dear! Always here and thank you for everything~:heart:
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MaddySwan5926 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student
Congrats!! :D Keep up the fantastic work!!
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
Aww! Thank you!! :D
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Lumatora Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ahhh congrats!~
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
Thank youuu~!! 8D
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Deltamimi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
ARE YOU HITTING ONLY 5 YEARS TODAY, JFC WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON THIS ADULT WEBSITE, KIDDO??

Haha jk! Congratulations!! You surely should never regret joining and showcasing your rad artwork to the world :heart: :heart:
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
ASASHDKFEHIFEIEF!!
I know! I'm so young XDD I still need a booster seat when I get on my desk to access my computer XDDD

THANK YOU!! I am so happy and never did regret it XDD Aha~ Thanks for always being there!! :tighthug::love:
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lygiamidori Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student General Artist
Congrats Aria! :heart:
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
Thank you~! 8)
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lygiamidori Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student General Artist
You're welcome! <3
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tabyruth Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Congrats gal!
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
Thank you~!! 8D
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tabyruth Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Did you see my big announcement?
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2016  Student Filmographer
I think so...Is it the news that you're out of the hospital???? 8D Because if so, I am so happy that you did~~:heart:
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tabyruth Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Hehe thanks!!! I'm getting out this afternoon and I'm so excited!
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
That's amazing!! That's superb! I am so thankful and happy to hear!!
:tighthug: :heart:
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tabyruth Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
:D It's nice to be home but all my mom wants me to do is all the chores non of my other siblings did (which is EVERYTHING) and she's just bickering about how my hospital bills are killing her....
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
That's no good that's she's giving you a hard time like that. It makes me mad how she treats you sometimes...
So what?! I'd do anything for someone, even if it costs me my very last dime! Her child finally came home from the hospital and she's complaining about bills??? What about you? Your health? Your well being? It's not right, I'm sorry :T I wish I was there to help and support you...:hug:
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Fredd8 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
I'm glad I could contribute to it. :hug: Sorry about J though.
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
Aww, of course you have~:heart:

And no worries, it was my fault, really ^^;
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Fredd8 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
I don't think it was. You were just really busy, and you were having a lot of trouble. It's starting to happen to me too.
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
Yeah, I suppose so...Nowadays I barely have time for myself much more anyone else. XD So I feel you and understand 8)

What I think is that she's just sensitive and takes things personally, I believe...From what I can tell...She's gone through so much and a lot of people have disappointed her...And I guess I did too.
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Fredd8 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah... ^^;

I can't say much, since I don't know a lot about you and her... but I bet if she gave you the chance to make it up to her, you would take it. So you are not a terrible friend. :hug: She just allowed people around her to influence her perspective on friends.
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StarryIceTea Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist
CONGRATULATIONS ^^
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
THANK YOU 8D
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StarryIceTea Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist
NO PROB ^^ your art is just so amazune ^^
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Student Filmographer
*Cries happily*
Oh my gosh, I am honored that you said that~!:hug::heart: 8'D THANK YOU~~ I also love yours~:heart:
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StarryIceTea Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist
naaah yours is better XD
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
IUyadgwiSHSHIHDIUIEIUGAUA!!

Ssssshhhhhhhhh


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I beg to differ XDD
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StarryIceTea Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Hobbyist
whut? XD
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MissInspi Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2016  Student Filmographer
Well, you said I'm good at art...

I'm not good...

YOU are good XDDD
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